My life has been a whirlwind since Christmas. I’ve been looking at my adoption, my relationships, recovery, all square in the eye. I was thinking today how one decision can change the course of our life. The decision my birthparents made with an unexpected pregnancy. Selfless. They chose life. They answered my parents prayers.
This little girl was blessed beyond measure with her family. All due to one decision.
Saying yes to go on a date with my future husband when I felt so undeserving. He was too good to be true. So grateful he decided to ask this girl out. For without our relationship that turned in to marriage, we would not have our 2 beautiful children and awesome grandson.
The daily decisions my family has made both individually and together, has brought us to our happiest time right now. Both of my children just graduated from college. My son accepted a job offer in NYC. We took a mother/son trip to apartment shop and had the time of our life. So much joy & laughter along the way. My daughter is in the final stretch approaching her wedding day next month. She is marrying the kind of many that every parent wants for their daughter. He has blessed my daughter & grandson immensely. To see my children’s dreams come alive before my eyes brings me to tears. My heart is full.
In the midst of all of this joy, I’ve been faced with unexpected challenges in relationships and physical limitations. Being emotionally invested, I can’t always see clearly, so I trust my husband, children and close friends to guide me along the way and open my eyes to the truth that is standing before me. With these 2 relationships, they’ve been gently nudging me, but mostly listening with compassion. I will not allow anyone or anything to steal my joy, yet I know the importance of honoring my feelings and processing them in the moment. To sweep it under the rug is very unhealthy for my recovery.
Both of my knees began really hurting me around Christmas time. I took the week off between Christmas & New Years to rest my body. I started back up January 1st, but at a much lower pace. I did my walking, but did not go to Isokinetix – my LOVE. The following week is when me and my son when to NYC, and we walked. Everywhere. LOTS of walking!!! Which was a good thing because I ate more than usual. BALANCE!!!
It wasn’t until this past Friday, that I returned to ISO. It felt SO good to be back after a few weeks. BUT… my KNEES. Not only my bad knee, but my good one too. I will continue to listen to my body, and take everything at my own pace. I think thats a great decision!!! Slow and steady wins the race, right?
This week, it will be back to more of a routine of my AA meetings, walking, ISO (at my own pace), Weight Watchers. Steven & I will continue to settle in to being empty nesters. I’m hoping to get adventurous in the kitchen again. I really need to take advantage of all of these WW recipes being posted to add variety.
This post is a little all over the place, but thats where I am right now. Swimming in the joy of my family life, while struggling with relationships and physical limitations. Just trying to find balance in it all. Until then, one healthy decision at a time.
To Thine Own Self Be True
Imagine with all your mind ~ Believe with all your heart ~ Achieve with all your might